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I am having a really strange day.
Since sometime last night I've been wanting to cry for unknown reasons - maybe it's just PMS. I forgot to take more of my happy pill yesterday.
I have been using my pinkie finger on my right hand as a worry stone I think. For months now. S* suggested I get an actual worry stone. I got one of those for when I went to see my mom. So today I took it out of the little pouch it was in, inside my change purse and started using it.
What the hell did I do to myself? My finger is raw and swollen and cracked and scabby. And if I am not careful, my ring finger with my wedding band and engagement ring will look just like it. I will NOT allow that to happen.
I put this new space age band-aid on the wound today - it's supposed to act like a scab and you keep it on for a few days.
In Jin shin jitsu, the little finger is supposed to mean you're "trying too hard". Starting from your thumb, it's Worry, Fear, Anger, Sadness, and Trying too Hard.
I guess I am trying too hard with work and school. But I didn't even study enough for class last weekend. Maybe my mind is just too focused on the big move to LA?
Might ask my mom if the eczema on her elbows was a nervous habit. Don't even know if she still has it.
I can not concentrate today. Better pick something small and simple and repetitive to do at work. Only 5 more hours to go.
Sigh.
Since sometime last night I've been wanting to cry for unknown reasons - maybe it's just PMS. I forgot to take more of my happy pill yesterday.
I have been using my pinkie finger on my right hand as a worry stone I think. For months now. S* suggested I get an actual worry stone. I got one of those for when I went to see my mom. So today I took it out of the little pouch it was in, inside my change purse and started using it.
What the hell did I do to myself? My finger is raw and swollen and cracked and scabby. And if I am not careful, my ring finger with my wedding band and engagement ring will look just like it. I will NOT allow that to happen.
I put this new space age band-aid on the wound today - it's supposed to act like a scab and you keep it on for a few days.
In Jin shin jitsu, the little finger is supposed to mean you're "trying too hard". Starting from your thumb, it's Worry, Fear, Anger, Sadness, and Trying too Hard.
I guess I am trying too hard with work and school. But I didn't even study enough for class last weekend. Maybe my mind is just too focused on the big move to LA?
Might ask my mom if the eczema on her elbows was a nervous habit. Don't even know if she still has it.
I can not concentrate today. Better pick something small and simple and repetitive to do at work. Only 5 more hours to go.
Sigh.