slowpokes

[nisaa]

I felt bad yesterday. There are two practice rooms for our Taiji class. Yesterday in the room I practice in, some of the women (this is where most of the women in the class have drifted to) started saying that we were the "remedial room". I had the feeling like I did in grade school of being picked last for the team in gym class. I felt awkward and a little upset.

I talked to the T.A. later on about it and he said there was no problem with learning things more slowly. But I feel like I've been practicing so much. When I was telling my husband about it, he asked me, "Have you ever picked up a sword before?" I said I hadn't. He told me not to worry about it.

Now I wonder how bad it looked when I did the form in front of the class two weeks ago. I really only got criticisms and not many compliments. I didn't know I was one of the slowpokes. Feh. There are more important things to worry about in life, really. It just hit the little girl inside me - the one who used to trip up stairs when she didn't know where her limbs were.

Comments

I have faith in you!!!

[pax-industria.livejournal.com]

I know how you feel. When I started fighting I was horrible. Not only that, I wasn’t athletic at all and in bad shape. People hit me, over and over again. I got concussions, the Armour hurt me, sometimes breaking the skin. I was bad. Really bad. And what’s worse. The people I started with were good. People told them they were good. I would watch fighters move with grace and power and dance on the battlefield while I could only clump, clump, clumped along. It sucked. I was miserable and felt crappy. Eventually though, I got better, bit by bit. Let me tell you it was slow. And long. But now people tell me they enjoy watching me fight, they like the way I move and dance on the field. In the end it’s worth it. Do this for yourself, do it well. Do it at your speed. You can do it. Your amazing and wonderful and when it does click for you, at your speed, It will be worth it and a thing of beauty.

Re: I have faith in you!!!

[nisaa.livejournal.com]

Thanks *warm and fuzzy hug*

POOPY HEADS

[butterflies79.livejournal.com]

I'm sorry your classmates are such mean poopy heads. They are just jealous because you are smart, pretty, and are going to be a great doctor. So dont worry about them, it's just sour grapes.