PMS

So, I went to a modeling shoot today - the first since S* put my photos up on a website and said I was 25. NOT. I am premenstrual and feeling very bloated. The pictures didn't help. Does the camera lie? S* said that they lie by about 10-15 lbs.

In a mere 8 1/2 months, I am moving to the most vain city on the planet: LA, I need to start working out NOW so I can keep up with people there. Grrrrrr...

I like my body from the waist up. From the waist down, in the photos, I saw dimples and bumps that I didn't want to see. Went to a party tonight where most people were a lot bigger than me and I felt pretty. Goddess, am I so vain? I spent so long dealing with peoples' comments about my face. I can't deal with the possibility about them talking about my ass.

I'm drunk now and am going to go to bed.