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I've been watching brain candy television and a movie tonight to escape from the news.
This week has sucked and I haven't even lost anyone I know. Does our kitty cat feel anything different about the world around him? I want to just cuddle him forever and not let him go.
Have I been different to people since Tuesday? I helped an old woman carry her bags to the bus stop in Harvard Square yesterday. She held my hand and said "Thank you and God Bless you" as I said goodbye. She made me think of my grandmother - only grandma would use a cart on wheels so she wouldn't hurt her back.
Every life is so precious. Everyone who is helping out is just amazing.
How can it be that New Yorkers are stopping and hugging each other in the street? I used to be one - they don't even look people in the eye in the subway. The City will never be the same.
This morning in Chi Gong class, someone led a 45 minute meditation for sending out healing, peaceful energy to everyone who needs it right now. It was the first time this week that I felt I was actually doing something to help.
The florist downstairs from where I work put a sign up yesterday that said "In Honor of our fallen Americans, please take a free sunflower". That one kind gesture has given me a smile each time I've looked at it on my desk at work.
I talked to my mother for the first time in a year on Tuesday. I called her because I couldn't get through to Pop-Pop in the Bronx on the phone. She was crying on the other end - either because of the tragedy or because I called or both. I think my therapist will think this is a good step.
I felt pretty numb on Tuesday though, so it hasn't really hit me. I had a few (4- 4oz samples, not a lot) to cope with the fact that I had called my mother and the tragedy. I listened to my husband spew conspiracy theories to me and Dominic as we ate dinner.
Ana came over late on Tuesday and we lit a candle, each picked Tarot cards and prayed. She picked the Ace of Cups and I got the Justice (Athena) card.
Tomorrow we are going to go to an SCA event. But will we really be able to escape this for a day? I don't know.
I've got a cold or a sinus thing going on. The energy of the world around me is wearing me down. I feel people's sorrows. I've had to ground and shield every day just to get through the day.
I want a nice hot bath and my bed.
This week has sucked and I haven't even lost anyone I know. Does our kitty cat feel anything different about the world around him? I want to just cuddle him forever and not let him go.
Have I been different to people since Tuesday? I helped an old woman carry her bags to the bus stop in Harvard Square yesterday. She held my hand and said "Thank you and God Bless you" as I said goodbye. She made me think of my grandmother - only grandma would use a cart on wheels so she wouldn't hurt her back.
Every life is so precious. Everyone who is helping out is just amazing.
How can it be that New Yorkers are stopping and hugging each other in the street? I used to be one - they don't even look people in the eye in the subway. The City will never be the same.
This morning in Chi Gong class, someone led a 45 minute meditation for sending out healing, peaceful energy to everyone who needs it right now. It was the first time this week that I felt I was actually doing something to help.
The florist downstairs from where I work put a sign up yesterday that said "In Honor of our fallen Americans, please take a free sunflower". That one kind gesture has given me a smile each time I've looked at it on my desk at work.
I talked to my mother for the first time in a year on Tuesday. I called her because I couldn't get through to Pop-Pop in the Bronx on the phone. She was crying on the other end - either because of the tragedy or because I called or both. I think my therapist will think this is a good step.
I felt pretty numb on Tuesday though, so it hasn't really hit me. I had a few (4- 4oz samples, not a lot) to cope with the fact that I had called my mother and the tragedy. I listened to my husband spew conspiracy theories to me and Dominic as we ate dinner.
Ana came over late on Tuesday and we lit a candle, each picked Tarot cards and prayed. She picked the Ace of Cups and I got the Justice (Athena) card.
Tomorrow we are going to go to an SCA event. But will we really be able to escape this for a day? I don't know.
I've got a cold or a sinus thing going on. The energy of the world around me is wearing me down. I feel people's sorrows. I've had to ground and shield every day just to get through the day.
I want a nice hot bath and my bed.
