my day so far

my lunch is a huge chocolate chip cookie from the someday cafe. It's big enough to be a small sandwich. I have real food in the fridge but I'll eat it when I damn well feel like it.

I'm pms-ing like crazy. My two favorite songs at the moment are completely opposite. "Video" by india.arie is a woman love yourself positive song. "Don't let me get me" by Pink is a song about someone who hates herself. I alternate between them.

Got more pix back from my modeling shoot a few weeks ago. If I can figure out how, I'll post some here. They make me feel really good about myself and the way I look. And I didn't blink during the shoot - maybe a few times but that's it.

I don't want to work today. I want to go to the gym. I fell asleep on the couch last night for a nap and S* let me sleep for over an hour and we didn't go to the gym but went to sleep early.

Newsflash: S* and I are dating someone together. She's actually one of our best friends who we dated once before but she decided to be celibate for a while and that ended things right then.

After my disasterous time at the anti-valentine's party, I've decided that I need a lot of time and space to deal with what I want from women. A* is very understanding. I love her a lot as a friend already. We'll see how it goes . . .

I should attempt to do some work.