fell down went boom

Last Saturday I fell off of my bike going down our very steep hill . I hit the pavement face down and the bike landed on top of me. The bar (that makes it a boy bike) must have hit me in the crotch because that was bruised and scraped up. Under my left breast hit first and that's still causing me pain.

I got up, walked around a little and got back on my bike and continued on our bike trip. Three days later, the pain in my chest felt worse. It was my birthday and my coworkers were going to have cake for me. I told my boss that after the cake I thought I'd leave to go to the hospital because the pain wasn't getting better and it was hard to breathe.
She told me to "do the adult thing" and go to the hospital and that we'd have the cake the following day. I pouted like a little kid and said "But I want to celebrate my birthday!"

I spent about 3 hours on my birthday in the hospital waiting to find out that nothing was broken, but that the cartilage around my ribs was probably bruised. She gave me scripts for Motrin and Vicadin - wahoo! The doc told me that I was doing everything else right by taking arnica and going to acupuncture.

Acupuncture helped. Massage helped a lot. I still haven't gotten my meds because every time I go into the damn pharmacy, there's a huge line or one incompetent staff person, or worse, both. So I've been taking a lot of advil, hot baths and arnica.

My left breast hurts which makes me have little desire for sex. If I could separate my crotch from my chest, it might help. But wait, there's more! Heavy breathing hurts.
So, what's the point of trying. I have tried with my husband but we have to keep stopping
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I am reminded of the first few months I had endometriosis. Sex hurt all the time. Now the mere thought of it hurts. I told my husband last week that he should go find someone else to have sex with (which is not uncommon in our marriage). He did and was a little happier and less frustrated.

I'm really frustrated, and not just sexually. This is going to take a while to heal. I don't have much patience but then again, I don't have much of a choice. I'm sad too. I'm tired of having something wrong physically all the time. And I'm premenstrual to boot.

We had a Halloween party last night and that distracted me for a while. I spent all day baking and decorating and that was fun. It was all a distraction. I got to kiss on a few people at the party. Kissing is about the only thing that doesn't hurt right now. So, I guess I should do lots of it.

I wish I could go back to sleep and wake up and the pain would be gone. That's all for now.